I’m in fight mode. Spittin’ mad. And likely to use words that mom wouldn’t approve of.
Let me back up. I started truqap and began week 4 yesterday. This med is pills take twice/day for 4 days and then 3 days off. No infusion. About 1.5 weeks ago I started to notice I was breathing better and weaned myself off oxygen. Things continued to improve from a breathing perspective. It was odd because my breathing had actually gotten worse during my month break in treatment. That had me freaked out. But, I had always pushed back on my doctor on this pneumonitis thing with scar tissue in my lungs because my breathing was starting to become a problem before I started treatment. I’ve always suspected it was disease. They insisted the evidence said otherwise.
This is not a miraculous recovery, but my breathing is at least 50% improved. I can walk and talk at the same time. I’m experiencing lack of appetite plus continued stomach issues, but I’m experimenting with things that are helping. I have been tired and lack stamina due to lack of food. But overall, I’m feeling much better than I was.
Another side effect of truqap is increased glucose and I’m still on 5mg of steroids which also increases glucose. I’ve been testing high at home, but nothing crazy. I tested this morning before eating anything and it was 101. Under 110 is good. Last week I was 122-166. I had a small bowl of multi-grain Cheerios and 1/2 cup of coffee with creamer after I tested this morning. And at 2pm at my clinic visit, I was at 377. Crap. They tested me again 1.5 hours later and I was at 319. So now I have to take a break from truqap plus take 2 meds to get the glucose under control. And, when I start again, they want to reduce my dose. No. Just no. They reduced my dose on the last med and I had a slow decline including increased tumor markers until I had progression. So don’t tell me that less medicine is just as effective. How could it be?
I tested myself when I finally got home about 2.5 hours after the first test and I was at 225. Still too high, but at least I know my meter works.
They also said the jelly beans I ate yesterday didn’t cause this especially since I tested low this morning. But I still blame them. I ate a lot. Darn Candy!! It’s hard to deny myself something I want on the days my stomach is good. And I have Cadbury cream eggs waiting for me. Calling my name. Infiltrating my dreams. Ugh, I love them so much. I might need my dad to visit and eat all my candy.
I just need 1 medication to work and right now, I feel better than I have in a long time and my tumor markers went down from 120 to 90 since I’ve been on this. And, I have eyebrows. Why can’t I have a win and keep it?
I cried. Couldn’t help it. I also told them that I’d rather have diabetes and be able to breathe than go back to how I was before.
Ok, pity party over. I’m going to lay off the jelly beans, do what they told me to do and hopefully they’ll let me go back on the full dose Monday.
